Where is the spirit?

I have been very reflective of late, With Christmas right around the corner, I am missing that Christmas spirit that I need. My mind has been bogged down by everyday problems, and reminiscence.
I have a friend who got married this year, and this will be her first Christmas as a wife. This made me think back to my first Christmas as a wife. It was a grand Christmas. We had very little money, yet it was probably the best Christmas we have had as a couple. Even without kids, it seems that life has taken over, I sometimes wish that I could go back to that time, and walk around, and feel those wondrous feelings again. Even go back to being a child, and the wonder that Christmas held. Time spent with Family, and traditions.
Perhaps the spirit will come, and we can have another grand Christmas!
I am for sure looking forward to next year. Perhaps I can make more of it than I did this year. 2008 has been very taxing.
I have to continuously sit my self down, and have a pep talk. I could have it so bad.
My husband could be off fighting a war instead of off playing music. I could have lost my home in the loan crisis. Or everything for that matter. I have a very full life! If guess sometimes I just catch myself feeling sorry for myself for the trials that I have, and forget to look around and see how good I really have it.
Perhaps tomorrow.