This is one week that I hope I never have to relive. Painful, uncomfortable, and stressful. Landon came home on Sunday because this is the week we had planned to bring everything we have been going through to a close. We had a few more papers to sign before the court date, and then yesterday was the Court date to finalize our divorce.
First off, it was very painful for both of us to be together in the same house after all this, and knowing that in a few days our marriage would be legally over.
Second, I could feel his pain, and that made mine more acute.
I know that to most people that I know, and to my family I have seemed like I was really ok with all of this, and it was having a pretty minimal effect on me.
But this has been the most painful process of my entire life. Severing a relationship with a man whom I loved for over 11 years should not be, and is not easy. It is very hard, and very painful. He was my best friend. I have lost that. Along with losing my husband.
I do know that this was my choice, and Landon did not want to get divorced, and that he is hurting, and I have turned his whole life upside down. The thought that I caused that pain, and also the uncertainty of his life is a very hurtful, painful idea for me to think about.
I never wanted this. But I also know deep in my heart and soul that I have made the right choice.
I hope and pray that he finds true happiness in his life without me, and that I can do the same.
So with all of this, our divorce is Final. Our marriage of 11 years is over.
6 comments:
Oh Mel, I am so sorry that you have had to go through this. I'm sure no one can understand the pain that you both are feeling right now, but I hurt for you. Eventually, you will both heal, but it doesn't help right now.
Melanie, I'm so sorry to read about your divorce. You are in my thoughts and prayers!!
I can't imagine how hard this is for you. I hope that things will get easier. You're in our thoughts and prayers.
Mel, I'm sorry to hear about your divorce. I hope things will get easier for you soon. You are in my thoughts and prayers :)
Hey Kiddo. Hope you are doing okay? I guess it happens in 2's? Kathy and I are getting divorced also, she say's she can't do this anymore...I understand her feelings. She stuck it out for 13 years, but needs a husband that's home every night and you and I both know I'm not that man. So, best to luck in your new life hope it all works out for ya...and don't be a stranger! "B"
Mel, sorry you're struggling. I can't fully imagine how difficult it must be on you. Sending some prayers your way to buoy you up in those dark moments.
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