Sunday, September 28, 2008

Life of Music



In reference to our slogan on this page. Our life is lived for the love of life and music. Landon loves to make music whether it be writing it, or playing it, either way he is happy. Me, I used to love to play. In a little bit different venue than him, I loved to play the violin, I truly did. Not in a solo situation, but with an orchestra. I loved the rehearsals, I loved the performances. Lets just say I loved to hear the results of hard work and dedication. I also loved to sing. Once again, not in a solo situation, but with a group. To hear the harmonies take shape, and turn out awesome. Both Landon and I were in many musical venues growing up. He was more into Piano, and Band, where I was into Choir and Orchestra.
I can no longer play the violin like I would like to due to injuries that I sustained, and have no venue that I would care to sing in, so I cope with this by listening to others make music.
Landon now plays for a living, and I could spend hours listening to music. Mind you, I am not really fond of the live scene unless it is blues ( I love listening to blues live) I do like to go watch Landon in his element, sometimes it just a bit too loud for my taste (yup I am getting old!) but I usually enjoy it immensely.

I found this playlist.com from my sisters blog, and I am now addicted. Because my taste in music has so many ranges I could build so many players with so many different kinds of music. I do try to keep it mostly clean for the songs I post to my page, but I feel that music has always been an outlet for me of sorts. When I am feeling in the dumps, I just put on some crazy lively music, and it helps. If it is one of those moods that lively music is not what I want, I put on depressing music, and just wallow in self pity for a while, event that usually brings me out of my funk.

You know that game that people like to play (mostly men [lol]). Where you will be listening to the radio, and the person you are with says. Hey can you guess who sings this song? I always hated this game, because regardless of my passion for music, my passion to know who sang it, the name of it, and what year it was recorded was not included in that. In fact in most cases, I can listen to a song for years, and never know who sings it. I just don’t care.
Well, My husband used to love to play this game, until I turned it around on him, and started asking him who sings it. He now does not like to play so much!
I have been pestering him most of the day today as he has been watching the race to guess who, and to tell me some songs by particular artists that he likes so I could add them.
Mind you, he is really good at the guessing game, and he knows so many songs it would astound most people.
But he has not wanted to play today, so I have kept putting songs on a new play list. (the one that is now playing).
And I have enjoyed putting it together. This one turned from 80’s to 70,s but still the same, they are songs that I like! If you do not like them, I put my player at the top of the screen on purpose so that anyone could quickly hit pause.
My blog will always have music attached somehow, since it is a big part of my life.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Wedding Bells


(picture of what C to the R has to look forward to!)
My youngest brother is getting married. He called me last night about midnight, and the first thing he says is “are you tired?” Crazy kid, I was in bed, and half asleep. Of coarse I was tired!
I am so excited for him, and hope that he knows what he is getting into! :)
(did any of us really know?)
From what I know, My parents newly home from the forgotten lands of nowhere went to visit my brother under the gist that he was going to help them find a new car. Little did they know that they were going to be roped into helping him pick out a wedding ring for the now engaged woman who will now be know as C to the R.
He asked her last night, and gave her the above mentioned ring which I heard her talking about to her mother while I was on the phone with J. I think she likes it! Good work J.
I guess I now no longer have to wonder about when I am going to use my last week of vacation.
Thanks J and C to the R for giving me a reason to come home!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Family Ties



I was just perusing some of my families blogs, when I came across some pictures of one of my cousins daughters.
First, she is darling.
Second, It put me on a path down memory lane.
I remembered some great times with my family (extended and immediate)
Every year for almost every holiday we would get together with all the Aunts, Uncles, and Cousins at one of our homes. We met at Grandma and Grandpas house quite often.
We would play all day long with all the cousins. We had our own age groups that would break off due to age, but we would all be in the same house, and we were always quite a crew. We would always eat tons, I am not sure how things did not end up more messy while we were there. (Perhaps they did, and I was the child so did not notice those things)
Those were such fantastic times. I am so grateful that my Mom and Dad made it an important part of our lives to know our whole family.
I often feel so inadequate in this aspect of my life.
I spoke to my youngest brother yesterday, and so many things that are big and important are happening in his life, and I knew nothing about any of them. This made me feel so very inadequate as a sister.
I hardly ever talk to him, and the last time I saw him was Christmas.
Now the sadder part, He is the last person in my family that I have seen.
I really think about them often, and wonder what is going on but have let the money situation get in my way of going to visit. It is so spendy to go from the South to the North West.
Yet some of my family make the effort, and seem to be able to afford it. I don’t know how.
I then called one of my other brothers that I had not spoken to in a while, and made sure I knew what was going on in his life. I care about my family deeply, and want them to know that even though I am not the sister that keeps in touch the best, or visits. I want to. And it makes me sad when I feel that I cannot afford it, because they are very important to me, and I do not think that they realize that. I have not been good enough at letting them all know. I will try to do better. It is always my goal in my life to strive to better those things that I find faulty in myself.
I will continue on, and one day I will be able to say. I am not near perfect, but I have become who I wanted to be, and those who matter know that they matter.

What can I do that will spike my interest?


I am unsettled. I have been roaming around aimlessly for the past few weeks thinking what can I do that will interest me?
I am having a terrible time at work trying to stay on task. I really put myself to the task for at least an hour at a time getting my work done, but that is about the length of my attention span lately, I then have to get up, and roam for a few minutes before I can stand to force myself to get back to work.
At home, I am hardly interested in anything. I cant figure out what to cook for dinner, because nothing sounds good…I am not too interested in any of the shows that have been on, and they have all been season premieres. I want to get out and do something, but I am not sure what to do, and the things that I think would be good are too much money for me to afford right now…
I was so excited to go camping to get away and do something, and it was great, but went by so quickly. Now what can I do? I cant think of a book I want to read...That is when I know it is bad. Reading is my outlet, and my passion.
So I finally put a word to my feeling today. Unsettled.
I guess that all the uncertainty in my life is starting to get to me. Our adoption processes are at a point where we are almost done with all the pre-work, so we may have children in our home in a few months, or two years, it is so unpredictable. I am still a little unsettled at my job, because I am still not 100% comfortable with my responsibilities, and what they encompass. I am getting closer, but still not there. And Landon seems to be a bit unsettled himself, which does not help things! Two people going crazy in the same house.
The world around me is driving me crazy with its uncertainly, and so here I am not sure what to do with myself.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Campout!


We had a great time camping this weekend! Landon and I went up Friday afternoon (I got to flex at 12:00!) so we found the campground that we had reservations for, we were not able to camp at the campground we had previously stayed, because it was full, so we had to camp on the other side of the lake.
It took another 40 minutes to get to the other campground, but we eventually found it, got a site that we thought would be good, and set up.
The last site that we stayed at on this lake was really quiet. Not too many dogs, or many young kids, it was nice.
This side of the lake, or it could have just been the time of year…There was a dog at almost every campsite, as well, as tons of little kids. And by the sounds of it, not too many of them were having a good experience.
We are going to be there with the noisy kids someday, but right now, it is nice to go camping, and not have to be woken up by a screaming child.
However, I will give them this; it was probably the crows that woke the child! Those darn things were loud as.
After we got set up, and made a quick dinner, we just hung out for the rest of the night, it was great. The next day, our friends (who will henceforth be known as LC and SC) came up with their boat, so we went out on the Lake for most of the day.
We played around in a nice cove, and then later after asking Landon and me if we wanted to ski, and us declining! SC decided that he would go ahead and wake board, then ski.
After telling us that he was terrible, and not to be too disappointed by his performance, he went out and showed us his stuff.
Just one thing to say to SC. Whatever, you were awesome. You can’t tell us again that you are terrible, and have us believe you! And as for LC, maybe next time for the tube ya?
It was so great to have company on our camp trips. Not that we don’t like to go by ourselves, we do, but it was also very nice to shake things up a bit, and have friends.
The weather could not have been better. And the company was superb. I would say that we had an excellent time.
It was a great day! After we got back to land we went back to camp, made tinfoil dinners, and then just hung out, played some games, and just relaxed!
Sunday was pack up day, so we ate, and then packed up.
LC and SC went back out on the Lake, while Landon and I finished striking camp. We then went down to the beach to see how it was. There was a “No Dogs on the Beach” clause so we ended up not swimming. It was too hot to leave poor Butch in the Truck.
And if we tied him to a bench outside of the beach area, he would be one of those Dogs that I spoke about earlier. One that would be way worse than any crying child too!
So we went home, unpacked, started the wash and watched the race.
Ahhh. Another great weekend with my husband here.

Friday, September 19, 2008

State of the Union


My concern for the state of the Union has been steadily increasing. My husband and I make a pretty good living, we have a modest house, with modest vehicles, and have been able to always eat, and fill our cars up with fuel, and still have a bit of money left for a bit of entertainment (such as camping!)
But recently, we have had to really start cutting back, using coupons, and not going to a campground in Oklahoma because it is too far to drive with fuel prices the way they are.
Here is the point I am getting at. We…a two income family with no children are starting to feel the real pinch of the prices at the pump which in turn have raised the price of almost everything. Some things significantly.
What are families doing that were already living paycheck to paycheck?
They are not getting paid any more at work, and some of them do not have that little cushion that they can just do without. They are having to choose whether to fill up the car with fuel so they can go to their job, or feed their kids dinner.
This is what I am concerned about. All the higher ups in the country say…”this is not a recession, we have not hit that level yet…” What do we have to see to hit a recession “level”?
Perhaps I am not as up to date on the true state of the economy, but I am worried about those that are less fortunate than my family, yet now that I have had to use any extra income I did have on needs rather than wants, I do not have that much left to give to others. I still have my weekly pay check deduction that I give to United Way, but I have very little else to give. I am now living paycheck to paycheck.
So when there is the most need for support, there is the least to give.
The food banks are crying for people to give, yet people are struggling to feed their own families, so the usual people who always give, no longer can, and the people who really need help have no where to go.
I am admittedly a little ignorant of the whole Fannie May, Freddie Mac thing, and how the government spending all that money to take over helps us, and perhaps it was the best move out there for families to keep their homes, but pretty soon they are not going to be able to keep them anyway if we don’t quit what we are doing as a country and focus on getting alternate methods of fuel, what ever happened to 100% solar cars? I know that we could not drive too far at night, but for those that could have a “commute” car that was all solar would save so many natural resources.
If we can come up with new ideas every month on new fangled things for our cell phones, and ipods, why don’t we focus these creative intelligent people on finding a way to get rid of our dependency on oil.
And if someone of something is standing in our way, who is allowing these companies to have that much power?
Just electing the right president is not going to fix this.
We have a country where we are free, yet we are still shackled by our government and their choices.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

How is it I never thought of that?


I love the mountains, I love the rolling hills, I love the fountains, I love the daffodils wheeeeen the lights are low boom diada boom diada boom diada boom dia.
I am so excited to get this party started! I am finally going camping. Get away from the hustle and bustle of daily normal life, and get out to the almost all natural nature!
I was talking to one of my co-workers today whilst thinking to myself, I sure wish it was Friday! Just as she said, happy Friday Eve…What? That is great. I love Eves, Christmas Eve, Thanksgiving Eve, Easter Eve, you know how that goes…I am so glad to have another Eve that I can look forward to EVERY week!
I will probably forget about this by two Thursdays from now, because there is just entirely too much stuff forced into my brain, that the unnecessary items have to fall out!
But until I forget! Yeah it is Friday Eve!
BURRITO day is coming!!! oops now known as omelet day. Too bad. I sure liked those burritos!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

What has happened to Society? We have turned into Lazy unloyal debt mongers.



Where did Loyalty go? Where did the work ethic go? What happened with Space Travel?
This is a topic that has really bothered me of late. Partly because of my job, but it is rampant in every part of our lives.
Lets take the work force. 30 years ago, a person would stay at the same job for years. Usually ending up retiring in this job. But then we started needing things faster, and in more quantities, and these people who were loyal were getting laid off after 30 years of service. For Robots, or a younger more aggressive workforce.
So then their kids saw this, and said to themselves, I am not going to let myself get stuck in that rut. So now days it is not looked poorly on a candidates application if they have worked at 6 different jobs in six years…Why?
Is there is a reason why people switch jobs so much? Why not find a job, and put up with it? If there is a lot of Bull at that job, perhaps find another one, but if there is the normal bull, stick with it. The grass is definitely not always greener on the other side.
When I was in my previous position (in the same company!), I was in a position that I hired people for jobs in a retail environment. This is where I had the hardest time. I would have applicants come in that were very young, gave them their first job ever, and then saw them flounder when they realized that it was not a social job, it was hard work. They would come up to me and say, “I cannot work here anymore, you expect too much of me and pay me too little.”
What is going to happen to these kids? If that job was too hard, isn’t the next one going to be too?
I see this being rampant. Kids are growing up lazy, with no sense of loyalty. Getting into debt, getting married saying that is too hard and getting divorced. Getting a good job, then saying that it is too much work, with not enough pay, and quitting. They then get deeper into debt, because they now do not have a job, yet they keep up their same spending habits. Then they default on their credit cards, their home loans, ect. Say having creditors breathing down their neck is too hard, and claim bankruptcy.
Man…and we wonder what has happened with the economy. People overextending themselves to ensure they have nice things, yet not making enough money to pay for them.
This drives me crazy.
Life is hard.
Marriage is hard
Keeping a job and finding things you like about it everyday is hard.
Telling yourself that you dont need the things you cant afford is hard.
but staying in a marriage regardless of the hard times is rewarding.
Staying in a job and doing your best is rewarding.
Staying out of debt is enourmously rewarding. Not right away, but later when you can afford to put your kids through college.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Hopeful Camper

Summer is almost gone

Most times this would not be a great sentiment for me as I have always been a summer type of person. But that was back in the day when I lived in a more temperate climate! Now I live for Spring and Fall. Partly because we can go camping! Yeah!
I have been wanting to go camping so bad for a while, and have not had the chance to do it because it has been so incredibly hot, and humid. Camping in this type of weather is miserable.



I am hoping that I can convince Landon that this next weekend would be a great weekend to go. (I hope that it does not rain)
He once again has a weekend off, and I want to take full advantage of it to get our camper out, and go into the somewhat wild.
Here in Texas there really isn’t any place that I would call wild. But a good lake, and some trees will do for me now!
Maybe we can go to Ray Roberts again. That was a pretty nice place
Here is to hoping I can go camping this weekend!

Am I getting old?



Here it is the day after a whole night of playing Tennis, Bowling, Baseball, and Boxing on the Wii, and oh my. I am such a wimp. I can hardly move my right arm. Example. Lets go to me trying to eat some cereal this morning. First I have to get the cereal off the top shelf of the pantry, the whole 19 oz. was almost too much for me to hold on to, then go for the milk. Only a half Gallon, and it is almost gone yet was still a difficult task. OK here comes the most terrible part. Go to me putting in the spoon, and trying to make it to my mouth. I didn’t know I actually used any muscle to do that every morning, but this morning, it was rough! My arm hurts so bad!! :)
So on to other things, I went to bed last night around 2am, thinking, oh yes, I can so sleep in tomorrow! Nope. 5:30am Butch needs to go outside (I swear that I just let him out!) but I would rather get my sleepy butt out of bed then to clean up the results of not doing just that.
I then stumble back to bed, and lo and behold 6:30 Butch wakes me up again. This time I looked at him and said …really? I let you out 1 hour ago, and not only that you have not ate, or drank anything since then. I think he was just bored, because he had been in his kennel the whole time I was out yesterday. He was saying, you had your fun, now I want to play!

So just as I was getting up out of bed, I get a crazy charlie horse in my calf, so I drop to the floor, and start stretching it out, and beating the living daylights out of my own flesh to stop the pain! (I think back to one of yesterdays Ballgames and us making so much fun of the little wus that had to go to the sidlines for a little cramp!) but I eventually got up, and here I am now a little later throwing around the alligator so that Butch can chase it!
One of those responsibilities be it a dog, or a kid. They have their own time table, and you need to adhere to it, regardless of what you chose to do the day before!

Gotta love em though!
Here is a video of Landon and I messing around with poor Butch. We get our thrills so easily.

The results of the Hurricane IKE party


I had a fantastic night. Regardless of the fact that we saw almost no rain, and very little wind. The Hurricane party turned out to be a normal everyday get together. Sad to say, but it is not often that I get to hang out with friends, that I have so much in common with, and just have fun playing games, and exchanging stories. It has been so refreshing to find friends that I can feel comfortable with, and not have to worry about all of the politics with other people.
We watched college football, played the wii, and just had a good time. I am so glad that this couple came to Texas, I know that they both miss home, but I hope they can start to feel a bit better about living in Texas after a while!
I do not have too many people that I can just hang out with. I love that I can with them. And I hope that this is the start of a great friendship, that we can do this often, and not get bored of each others company.
Go Gamecocks! :)

Saturday, September 13, 2008

New slide shows

I have changed my slide shows. If you want to take a look at the new ones.
I am going to have to continue to rotate them in and out, because if I put them all on here, the page would be veerryyy slooowww.

Hurricane IKE



Well, here on the outskirts of Dallas, we are just beginning to feel the impact of Ike. (picture above from Corpus Christi from our South Texas trip)
The people from south Texas started filing in yesterday. We are expected to get pretty crazy wind and rain, but not even close to what the coastal regions are dealing with right now.
So what did My friends and I do? We have put together a Hurricane party.
We are going over to one of our houses and playing games, and eating dinner.
So that we can watch the hurricane (which by the time it hits us will I am sure be a tropical depression)
pass over, and celebrate all those that got out in time.

Mid Year Appraisal time


I had my mid-year appraisal on Thursday, and I will be honest with you. With this new position that I got promoted to in April, I was a little nervous. It is a position that there is just not a lot of training for, so you just have to fly by the seat of your pants and figure things out while you go, like what your job responsibility really are. It has been a struggle for me also, because in my last position, I was the good guy that helped stores with issues that they had, and resolved problems that they had.
Now I am the bad guy that calls and asks why they spent more salaries than they had sales for.
I saw the meeting for my appraisal go on my calendar last week, and have had a nervous stomach ever since. So by Thursday, I had gone through the goals that were set, and had questions written down for almost all of them. And went in at least prepared to hear that I was not doing what I really should be.
I was a little surprised that while they saw the need for me to continue to grow in my position they thought I had been doing a pretty good job so far, and answered all of my questions, so I think I may be better prepared now to at least aim to achieve some of my goals, and for sure make others. So one more mid-year passes, and I still have a job, (phew)

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Parents...

I have to say, what a difference a night makes! I was able to carry my own sunshine with me all day!


I was sitting here at my computer compiling letters that my Mom and Dad have written while they have been away, and I realized I think it really sunk in that they are coming back home next week!.
Those two statements may need some clarification yeah?
Ok. My parents have been living within the Islands of the Federated States of Micronesia for the past two years. And until a few months ago, were only reachable by e-mail. Then they got Skype, however, trying to talk to someone on Skype that is halfway across the world, and has to rely on dial up is not an easy task, so I still found the best way to communicate was with e-mail, or the chat functionality of Skype.
I have not ever been the type that relied heavily on my parents, they taught their family to be independent, and I think that most of us are very independent.
However, I have to confess. I did not realize how heavily I still did rely on them. For emotional support, and just for friendship.
It is odd growing up. When I was a child my parents were my world, then I grew to the teenage part of my life, and my parents were so not my world, I wanted out of their house as fast as I could (I think this must be a weird teenage thing that happens to quite a bit of the population!)
Then while I was on my own for many years, I really can’t say that I thought too much about my relationship with my parents. I spoke with them once a month or so, and e-mailed when I remembered (which was not often…bad daughter!)
However, with them out of reach for two years, I can say that I have had moments of time where I really missed them.

Hmmm. Now what am I going to do? Go visit? They'll have to have a million things to do since they have been gone for so long, and when would a good time be. I am actually a little anxious about this, and don’t understand why.
This feeling is very odd for me, and I am not sure how to react. I guess I will just keep on keeping on. And go with the flow.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Monday , Monday


I have been irritable all day today. I hate days like this. I get up, go about my normal routine, go to work, and once there, and the slightest thing were making me have to grit my teeth and hold my tongue. All day the smallest things that usually just roll off my back were bothering me to the point where I had to put myself in time out for a bit to cool off. :)
And for those of you who know me, I am a pretty level headed, laid back person. So when I cant get a hold of my irritability it irritates me!
Not only that, but I once read a book that I actually liked that said you need to carry your own sunshine with you. I did try today, it just was not a sunny day in my little space!
So I got through the day, and was driving home thinking what the heck is wrong with me today. Then it hit me…That lovely part of being blessed to be born woman.

I sometimes hate being a woman. But most days I am proud. Today, I am just not!

My husband calls just as I am realizing my issue, and says to me why don’t you go home, hang out with the dog and watch football, that will make you feel better!
I love him so much for that, because I love my dog, and I love football. Not only that, it was my team that was playing!
So I did just that. Came home hung out with Butch (the dog) and watched my team get their a**s kicked.
Oh well. Being a Vikings fan, that happens a lot! I still just cant be a switch hitter, so I still hold out faith every year that this will be the year. I know it has not been their year since the 80’s but hey…you never know.
So I am now just tired. And I hope tomorrow will be better. And I will try to bring my sunshine with me!

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Freedom of Choice

Well, I woke up this morning, came and checked my e-mail, and lo and behold, there was another e-mail from the Mother of the two kids we were looking to adopt. You know the one who changed her mind. Told us that there was no way ever that she could give up her kids, and that she was very sorry. Well. It seems she has a hard time making and keeping a decision.
She has changed her mind again. She wants us to have her two kids. But not yet. She has things that she has to get done first.
I think that this is worse than having her tell us she did not want to give them up. Feeling the initial disappointment of having it not work out, just to have her dangle the carrot once again. I think that I want to be done with this situation. I am not even angry at her for leading us on this whole time, have us get all the legal things figured out,. Involve other people that I love, have them spend time, money, and feel the stress that comes with anything like this.
I am irritated that she says she cant, then says she can.
I even understand that this must be one of the hardest choices in her life, but if she was not sure, she should have not ever said that this is what SHE wanted in the first place. It would have saved a lot of people worry, money, and hurt. If the answer is No, say no, and mean it. We are not sure what we are going to do now. All she wants is the one thing we do not have much to give, and that is Time.
My choice is to still pursue the State of Texas adoption, which will take a bit more time anyways, if she comes through, then she will. If she doesn’t, she doesn’t. I am not going to put my hopes on this any longer.
I know I sound a little angry. I am. I cant help it. This is important to my family as well, and has put untold amounts of stress on my husband and I to figure everything out for us as well as make arrangements for her in every way possible.(with the help of many people), and have her not be able to do anything for herself, not even make a choice and stay with it.
Whatever…I am done.


This video that we took one time while camping is kind of how I feel. Just pushing rocks around. Not getting a lot accomplished.

Saturday, September 6, 2008

High hopes, and disappointing times


Well, the fiasco with the mother and her children is over, she has changed her mind. So we are back to our original plan. At least we will be in Texas long enough to get the process of all the classes, and home studies complete, and be able to actually try again.
This has been a stressful, and trying time with these children.
They live in a terrible situation with all of their parents, and grandparents not even on the same continent as them, leaving them to whomever will take them in, and yet, they think they are fine, and do not understand that there is a better life out there.
The mother wanted to give them a better life, but then the grandparents, and the people she was living with stepped in, and said that they are her kids, and how could she give them away...so she changed her mind.
They are right, they are her children. But for the situation she has left them in, if she was living here, they would have been wards of the state by now.
But they live in a place that does not have the best interest of the children at heart, and so they will continue to live in that terrible place with no mother, father, or grandparents there to care for them.
And that will have to be alright with us. There are many children here at home that we could give a better life to, so we will go find them.

Right or Wrong? Left Wing or Right?



Back to the topic of Sarah Palin, (speaking of Sarah, here is a picture I took while in alaska) and her ability to run as VP, and how she is so much like the rest of the world, yet...
There are some out there that say she should not abandon her children to run for office, that she talks about family values, yet where are hers?
I have a hard time with this sentiment only because I will be a working mother, due to the fact that my husband is a musician, and very good at his skill, but until he makes it big :) , I need a steady job to ensure we can afford our life.
So when children come into the picture, (which by the way we will be adopting), when my husband is out of town, they will go to day care.
So some may say...why are you adopting children just to drop them off everyday with someone else?
I say...
If they are able to be adopted chances are their world was much more grim than having to go to "pre-school" and having a mother and father who love them pick them up everyday, and take them to a home where dinner will be made, and they have a comfortable bed to sleep in, and they are safe.
I still think I am doing the right thing.
And I am a career woman, working up a very busy ladder.
Not only that, but when my husband goes to play sometimes he is out of town for weeks at a time. So not only am I a career minded women, half of the time I will be a "single mother" working a full time job.
So I have a feeling that I will be looked at as a saint for adopting in some peoples eyes, and a heathen for adopting and not staying home in others.
But what I think I am is a woman who wants to give a child who is already here a second chance at a better environment.
There is also the question or statement that comes up that people feel bad for us because we cannot have children of our own, and how sad for us that we cannot have our own flesh and blood.
Let me squash these questions or statements. We are adopting children because we want to, not because that is our second choice. There is no reason why we could not have children of our own. We have just chosen a different path for our family.
So would the right thing still be to not adopt?
That is the question.
And perhaps the question for Sarah Palin would be...are her children well cared for. You know a mother is not the only person who can care for a child. What about the dad? Or the Grandparents? They all lived together in the same town.
Hmmm.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

The life and the times.


I have been reading Mrs. B Roths blog, and there has been much talk about many touchy subjects that everyone in the word regards differently.
Religion, Sex, and Politics!
So I thought I would put my views out there as well, since this is my blog!
Lets start with politics, since that seems to be the topic of the day.
Sarah Palin...What to do with her. Do we like her? Do we judge her? Or do we accept her?
Well, I can tell you there is one part of the campaign this year that I really do like. The fact that the notion is going around that it does not matter if you are a registered Republican, or a registered Democrat, or anything in between.
What really matters is that you agree with their plans, and TRUST them.
Now while I completely agree with this, and could never myself register as any party due to the fact that I have voted all different ways depending on who was running, for what office, and what they stood for.
I do have a problem with the TRUST part.
Do we really Trust any of the people running for office? Do we know them? Do we know what they will do in a tough situation. Are they secretly greedy, and can be bought. Do they have a past experience like McCain that could make him racist, or at least less apt to listen to a particular type of person. We would be putting him right smack in a war. Where he did not have such good experiences from his tour. But perhaps that made him more capable?
So what do we really know about any politician?
There are people out there who say they would not vote for Hillary because she stayed married to a man who cheated on her (I would be assuming more than once) but until we live in her shoes, do we know why? I would be more likely not to vote for her because of her persona of superiority, than that she stayed with a cheater.
What about Obama? He does not have the experience, and I do think that is important. But is it the most important?
So when it all comes down to it. Do we fall back on..."well, I have no idea who to choose, because I do not really agree with all points from any candidate" and vote for who we feel our "party" is regardless of ideals?
That is the reason that we vote! We have the chance to put ourselves out there and say...while I do not agree with everything that you say, I am going to trust you to keep my family safe, and to provide good schools, and to make this country one that I am proud to live in.
What a heavy burden for anyone.
I will vote, but I have not decided for whom, due to the fact that I have not taken the time to properly research each of the candidates. And I do not trust everything I see on TV, or read on the Internet. :) However, I do have to use those sources for everything, so lets hope that 80% of the facts that I get are in fact true!
Since this blog has gotten a little long winded, I am going to have to leave the Sex and Religion topics for another time!