
I am unsettled. I have been roaming around aimlessly for the past few weeks thinking what can I do that will interest me?
I am having a terrible time at work trying to stay on task. I really put myself to the task for at least an hour at a time getting my work done, but that is about the length of my attention span lately, I then have to get up, and roam for a few minutes before I can stand to force myself to get back to work.
At home, I am hardly interested in anything. I cant figure out what to cook for dinner, because nothing sounds good…I am not too interested in any of the shows that have been on, and they have all been season premieres. I want to get out and do something, but I am not sure what to do, and the things that I think would be good are too much money for me to afford right now…
I was so excited to go camping to get away and do something, and it was great, but went by so quickly. Now what can I do? I cant think of a book I want to read...That is when I know it is bad. Reading is my outlet, and my passion.
So I finally put a word to my feeling today. Unsettled.
I guess that all the uncertainty in my life is starting to get to me. Our adoption processes are at a point where we are almost done with all the pre-work, so we may have children in our home in a few months, or two years, it is so unpredictable. I am still a little unsettled at my job, because I am still not 100% comfortable with my responsibilities, and what they encompass. I am getting closer, but still not there. And Landon seems to be a bit unsettled himself, which does not help things! Two people going crazy in the same house.
The world around me is driving me crazy with its uncertainly, and so here I am not sure what to do with myself.
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